".. I hear you calling, but I can't come home right now. Me & the boys are playing.. Just a few more hours and I'll be right home to you. I think I hear them calling.."
".. and it's probably cause you think you're cooler than me."
"I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing.. Feels like flying; I close my eyes, Oh God, I think I'm falling out of the sky. I close my eyes; heaven help me."
"I wish I could carry your smile in my heart for times when my life feels so low. It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring when today doesn't really know."
"Sometimes in our lives we all have pain, we all have sorrow; but if we're wise, we know that there's always tomorrow. Lean on me, when you're not strong, and I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on. For it won't be long 'til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on."
"If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, I'll sail the world to find you. If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see, I'll be the light to guide you. You can count on me like one, two, three; I'll be there. And I know when I need it I can count on you like four, three, two; and you'll be there. Cause that's what friends are supposed to do."
"At night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself talking to the moon- try to get to you in hopes you're on the other side talking to me too. Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?"
"I know I'm not perfect, but at the end of the day, who is? She wanted someone that's perfect, okay.. but can you tell me who is?"
".. that for you I'd do it all over again, do it all over again. All I went through, led me to you; so I'd do it all over again."
"I'll stand by you- take me in, into your darkest hour and I'll never desert you. I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you; won't let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you; won't let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you."
"Sometimes I feel like I've never been nothing but tired, and I'll be walking 'til the day I expire. Sometimes I lay down, no more can I do, but then I go on again because you ask me to. Some days I look down, afraid I will fall, and though the sun shines I see nothing at all. Then I hear your sweet voice- come and then go, come and then go- telling me softly..you love me so."
"There is no language for how I feel. When I look at you standing there, none of this seems real. There is no language for how I feel cause we're looking for the way to make this better; looking for a way to change the weather, whether you or I survive tonight, I promise you that I will love you like we're gonna live forever."
"I've been alone with you inside my mind, and in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times. Hello! Is it me you're looking for? I can see it in your eyes; I can see it in your smile. You're all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide. Cause you know just what to say and you know just what to do. I want to tell you so much.. I love you."
".. and I need you now tonight; and I need you more than ever. If you only hold me tight, we'll be holding on forever; we'll only be making it right cause we'll never be wrong. Together we can take it to the end of the line; your love is like a shadow on me all of the time. I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark, we're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks. I really need you tonight, forever's gonna start tonight. Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart. There's nothing I can do... a total eclipse of the heart."
"So don't cry, my love, the skies above will cry for you and I'll be safe so hold belief- I'll come back home for you..(due to unforeseen circumstances).. Goodbye, my love, as I bid farewell to thee. All is fair in love and war, so I'm goin' overseas."
3rd June, 2010:
Graduation, yet another milestone reached.
Holidays are always lacking without the bestfriends, Kathy Marie & Ming Zen.
My dinosaur friend, Esther Leong:
"Your bestfriends must have left a mark in your life for you to still feel this way about them after being apart for so long eh?"
SeanRyan:
"My bestfriends mean the world to me. They make me feel like even if no one liked me, hated me, or despised me, I couldn't give a flying fuck because they've instilled security in me 6 years ago."
You cannot phantom the immensity of the fuck I do not give.
We are just you and just me.
Jumping off the roof screaming: Fucking Awesome!
Currently: preferring to go on in the illusion that life is just a dream.
Hate how some people don't know how head-fucked they have to be to ring the doorbell of my house in such an assholeish way.
Some people have a thoroughly innocent face, like there's a hymen imprinted directly on the face.
Cotton-On, Cotton-On.
Rejected by Rock Corner. Fuck off.
Beth, I'm in love with you.
PENIS! (Jared Angga) hahahha.
If you can imagine it, you can achieve it.
I believed in love at first sight.
Officially a Gleek.
Gym Gym Gym. 2 months free. Results? Uncertainty. Toned arms?
Holiday starting off shitty.
Can't go out late at night anymore; can't drive out late at night.
Scratched, damaged, dented- car.
Parents tight on the 2 months left before escape to Canada.
Love them for that. Hate them for that. Love them-
Bruno Mars, legend.
When will they realize that there are things in life you can't learn off a damn book?
Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth.
"strap on" | "no parts". Interesting.
Calls calls.
Texts texts.
Credit no credit.
Roadtrip: Beach, Singapore, Genting, Ulu area with glass house, KK, Cheras, Sunway, Church, denial?
To burn the letters or not to burn the letters?
To give the letters or not to give the letters?
To read the letters or not to read the letters?
Pieces of the memories. Shattered memories. Could've beens. If(s).
Quoted from the text book of "Challenge of Change in Society":
"Infertility is a form of private grief, without social support, because the lost is hidden.. The nature of infertility is such that a person may never know if one would be able to have children, and may never know the cause of it. As a result, the hurt/despair/depression/sadness/anger/angusih is aimed at the 'what ifs' & 'could've beens'."
My point?
Whatever decisions you make in life, there will definitely be regrets.
Relevant?
Who gives a shit?
Abortion. Abandonment. How heartless the human species can be.
Hate it when you complain the holidays are boring; GET A LIFE! No one wants to hear you jabber on how depressing your life is just because you lack initiative or, forgive me as I say, potential.
Bitter. Bitter. Not really. Sweet!
New people walked into my life recently; the gates are already open for them to walk out of it.
Sad? Yeah. Regrets? Time.
Picnic by my love.
Sunset by my love.
Friends by my love.
Beer by my love? Hopefully.
Pancake date! `Shiatteen&Nigel.
Lewis is leaving soon. Natalie is leaving soon. I am leaving soon.
Am I the one leaving, or are they the one staying?
How opaque have the mind been as of late? Pretty.
Holidays, I go with the flow in thee.
Work? Hopefully.
Haven't been swimming in awhile eh, Sean?
I know; missing my tan, Ryan.
My monologue in my head.
Some people are just so fucking retarded. I see retards almost everyday. The immensity of their stupidity is flawlessly&ginormous-ly obvious!
Karaoke. Karaoke! I long for thee.
Beth, are you calling me to sleep already? Just a few more minutes, I'll be right home to you (:
Confrontation, guess I'll meet thee soon.
Hope brings despair.
Reliance brings disappointment.
Popularity brings annoyance.
Anticipation brings stupidity.
Rejection brings pain.
Acceptance fixes a temporary joy within you that will eventually be demolished by the same target.
I, would, like to believe I have everything, which, in no doubt, I figure I do so. But I am not, to say the least, appreciating it, apparently, the way I'm supposed to, in actual, deep fact, because, seemingly, I don't know how to, literally.
WHAT'S WITH ALL THE COMMAS?! FML!
I believe there are many people I will miss once I'm off in Canada.
I sneeze, cough, yawn, spit at Winnie the Pooh. He is Pooh. Pooh is shit. He is Shit.
Sarah|Zeeek.
Many other unforgettable's.
2:01 AM.
Who am I missing now? She.
Who do I want to kill now? Another She.
Who am I thinking of? A different she.
What do I hope to gain from doing this? Nothing.
Hey! Only girls are on my mind now. Hahaha!
Drinking, forbidden by the father.
Going out, forbidden by the mother.
Acting on impulse, forbidden by the brother.
Walking downstairs, forbidden by the dog.
Sleeping, forbidden by the thoughts.
Gibberish, gibberish. You think? Check this out:
`Every sentence, written or said, despite or in spite of context, have a meaning of its own that can vary abundantly to the same, or even different, pair of eyes." - Sean Ryan
What is meant, particularly for the retarded I notice in society, is that any sentence at all have more than one meaning to one person and to various persons.
Thus, fuck whatever sentences you define as gibberish. There is no such thing as gibberish; every sentence makes sense- written or said.
Beauty in simplicity.
How many of you can actually appreciate a movie in Black&White? Very few, apparently so.
The irony is, despite not knowing how to enjoy the simple black&white, many people still wear black or white, trying to conform to these.. simple colors, to say the least. Yet, don't know how to properly appreciate it.
Today eye woke up two e massage witch basically toad mee that dare is know point going two Pyramid anymore, so I called Lewis ant toad hymn wee were going to collage together ass eye wanted too drop of a latter. After doing sew, eye dropped Lewis of act duh train station ant vent to Isaac's place. We vent two 1Utama four a job hunt. Consequently, wee vent beg two Isaac's place two watch a movie. I den left halfway true duh movie ant came home two try to sleep. (credits to Edna)
That was a colossal waste of my time. I didn't wanna continue.
I hate how there were some people who blog about their day. I used to do that, they remind me of how stupid I was. (No offense to anyone, I don't see people's blog anymore).
Well, I guess people have different purposes for having a blog. Just like how people have different purposes of living- eat to live, live to eat, fuck to live, live to fuck.
Anyway, I'm Graduating today! Happy thoughts, Sean.
Time to sleep.
Beth, I'm coming home to you.
Goodnight.ness!
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