"So I'm throwing out all my cards, cause I think I've finally found the Queen of Hearts. I used to be the King of Clubs, but now those days are done."
"Too long we've been denying; now we're both tired of trying. We hit a wall and we can't get over it. Nothing to relive, it's water under the bridge. You said it, I get it; I guess it is what it is."
"Give me, if a day, just so I can say: 'I love you.' And take it all away maybe you would say you miss me too. You are mine to remember, you are mine to remember."
"I wanna be a billionaire, so fucking bad. Buy all of the things I never had. I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine, smiling next to Oprah and the Queen. Oh every time I close my eyes, I see my name in shining lights. A different city every night; oh I, I swear, the world better prepare for when I'm a billionaire."
"And now I miss everything about you (still you're gone). I can't believe that I still want you (have I loved you I never should have walked away). After all the things we've been through, I miss everything about you."
"Oh, darling when you look at me it's sweet just like the summer breeze. My heart. Close your eyes and listen to the moonlight melody. Darling, dance with me; darling, dance with me; darling, dance with me. Please."
"I wish you knew all the ways I love you. I pray each night for just a second of your time. As I watch you dance, and I can't help but wonder if I took this step, would you notice me at all. It's just so hard to be so brave; try to say it all but I never say it, try to stand so tall but I'm so damn afraid- so afraid. Underneath it all, we're just kids with big dreams and a stubborn heart. Behind smiles and hand me downs, we're all looking for that light- cause we're all a little scared of the dark."
"Breathing. I'm not the only heart beating. There's nothing worse than just feeling the weight of walking alone. Tell me I'm not the only one."
"Give me a reason to fall in love. Take my hand and let's dance. Give me a reason to make me smile, cause I think i forgot how. I wanna fall asleep with you tonight; I wanna know that I'm safe when you hold me tight; I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever. I want you. I wanna dream away with you tonight. We can go anywhere you would like. I wanna feel how I wanna feel forever. I want you."
"Won't you be my honey bee, giving me sweet kisses all the time? Be my, be my Valentine."
Dear Toby,
You were once proud&handsome; you were once energetic&always high-spirited; you were once smart&patient; you were once alert&ever-ready; and you will always be my childhood friend. Those were the days you sang along with the gas truck and the newspaper truck; yes, you were a terrible singer, but I will miss your howls. You always love having your walks and making Justin & I, or dad, watch as you take a shit or piss. We love you like that. You never bit us. You allowed me to sit on you and twist your ears like you were a motorbike. We played ball every evening once, and I loved your spirit. I talked to you a few times. Your companionship was great. You love replying with your 'huffs', but I get it. Who'd wanna listen to rants right? You've always known when it was your time to go for a walk and when was dinner time. You were intelligent. You lived a great life and I'll always cherish&remember you. You are the greatest.
Love, your childhood friend brother,
Me
Me
Recent status: lost, numb, sore, hurt, and judgmental.
Got accepted into the University of Waterloo & Trent University; which to choose?
Easter play: "Beloved"
Ironic: I'm teenage Jesus.
I love you, my lake.
I know I'm in love with you because you give me peace of mind and I can't help but be in awe of your beauty. You may be far, but worth the travel.
Gym Gym Gym. Learning to gyming.
Swim Swim Swim. Wanting my tan.
Holiday last week was the bomb.
First day back to college today. Hot. Crowded. Drag.
March intakes are here. Be friends? Disregard?
Still miss my cousin Jeremy Gan, and the bestfriends FattyKathyMarieFernandez & CocoNutMingZen. My sister, DawnChan too.
Yeah, things would be different if all of you and the rest didn't have to go.
Well, it's my turn to go soon. August.
Beijing? Family trip? I want.
Roadtrip? When? Friends. Mm..
Prefer if gays would just be open about it rather than acting all sissy-ish and denying it. Not to offend, but to accept more easily.
I hate awkward situations.
I will not conform. I do not conform. I hate the pestering to conform.
Midterms on Wednesday. Finally.
Calculus rapes me. Stop raping me.
My bed. My pillow. Comfort.
Those were the days when I was young&naive.
Those were the days when I was immature&shameless.
Those were the days when I was stupid&useless.
These are the days where I am on my own.
Bitter. Bitter. Bitter now.
Been driving. Driving all around. I love driving alone; listening to my songs.
Sleep, my dear, you're inconsistent and terribly late, you know?
eBuddy sucks. can't wait to get msn so people can see the awesome songs I'm listening too.. and realize how my songs are better than theirs. hah!
Broke. Saving to get an iPod classic.
Hot. Stuffy. Noisy. Smelly. Foyer.
I miss footsal. I miss basketball. I miss my team. I miss my friends.
In Biology, I learn adaptation.
In Sociology, I learn conformity.
In Maths, I learn perseverance.
At home, I learn alone time is precious.
Was I a fool to think this year would be a good year? Because now seems pretty shitty.
Fake smiles. Fake expressions. Awkward situations. Uncertain intentions.
I want to fall asleep by the lake someday, as I watch the stars with a flask of hot milo in one hand.
Cherish some, disregard others.
Time heals. Music heals. Family&friend heals. Lonesome does not heal.
Dramaturgy.
Cognitive Dissonance.
Binary Opposites.
If I could go back and choose between you and the rest of CIMP, you know it'd be you.
How ironic it is: "It Is What It Is" by Lifehouse.
Patching up old friendships. Strengthening new friendships. Forgetting "beyond repair" friendships.
Sensitivity. Insensitivity. Believe it, sensitivity gets you hurt. Insensitivity keeps you safe.
Thus, ignorance is bliss.
There was once a boy who picked up a glass cup from the table, and out of frustration, threw it hard against the wall. The glass cup shattered, and there was no more glass cup.
Moral of the story: Buy more glass cups.
One day, a lady was rushed into the ER because she was stabbed with a knife. The knife was still pierced in her body. The surgeons had to remove it and then stop the bleeding or else she would die from excessive bleeding. Two hours later, the surgeons came with dismay on his face and went to the lady's family to deliver the news. The surgeon said, "The good news is we managed to remove the knife from Jenna's abdomen. The bad news is she pass away as we weren't able to stop the bleeding." Joseph, her husband, shouted through tears in anger," Why weren't you able to stop the bleeding?!" The surgeon replied," Because sir, there was an elephant in the way."
People who look stupid are cool. People who are stupid are damned.
Jim was playing with knives. As Jack was opening his offer of admissions letter from the University of West Michigan, Jim accidentally cut Jack's neck and Jack died. At the funeral, Jack's mom asked Jim how the tragedy happened. Jim explained, "It was a paper cut." Mother believed.
Sleep on my bed, at where my foot lay. But remember to leave the ticks behind.
Will tomorrow be a good day?
Will tomorrow be productive?
Will tomorrow bring me sorrow?
Will tomorrow make me wallow?
Will tomorrow mark a change in my life?
Doubts Doubts.
Traditional milo&hapseng biscuits. Orgasmic.
Two times in one day.
Sleepy. Sleepy.
Shoot me. Stab me. College tomorrow. FML.
Baring it. Baring it.
All's well as for now. Holding on. When I slip, I'll let it all come out.
Disregard. Irrelevant. Ignorance.
Don't wail when he throws the pail.
Don't cry when he die.
Don't mock with your thoughts.
If looks could kill, I'd be a murderer.
Let sleeping dogs lie.
Water under the bridge.
Cooler than the flip side of her pillow.
Avoidance? Mm..
Dance? Footsal?
Anyways, Wonderland calls. Time to sleep.
I wonder if the Mad Hatter would teach me how to Futterwacken tonight. I'd love to learn it.
Goodnight.
Holiday last week was the bomb.
First day back to college today. Hot. Crowded. Drag.
March intakes are here. Be friends? Disregard?
Still miss my cousin Jeremy Gan, and the bestfriends FattyKathyMarieFernandez & CocoNutMingZen. My sister, DawnChan too.
Yeah, things would be different if all of you and the rest didn't have to go.
Well, it's my turn to go soon. August.
Beijing? Family trip? I want.
Roadtrip? When? Friends. Mm..
Prefer if gays would just be open about it rather than acting all sissy-ish and denying it. Not to offend, but to accept more easily.
I hate awkward situations.
I will not conform. I do not conform. I hate the pestering to conform.
Midterms on Wednesday. Finally.
Calculus rapes me. Stop raping me.
My bed. My pillow. Comfort.
Those were the days when I was young&naive.
Those were the days when I was immature&shameless.
Those were the days when I was stupid&useless.
These are the days where I am on my own.
Bitter. Bitter. Bitter now.
Been driving. Driving all around. I love driving alone; listening to my songs.
Sleep, my dear, you're inconsistent and terribly late, you know?
eBuddy sucks. can't wait to get msn so people can see the awesome songs I'm listening too.. and realize how my songs are better than theirs. hah!
Broke. Saving to get an iPod classic.
Hot. Stuffy. Noisy. Smelly. Foyer.
I miss footsal. I miss basketball. I miss my team. I miss my friends.
In Biology, I learn adaptation.
In Sociology, I learn conformity.
In Maths, I learn perseverance.
At home, I learn alone time is precious.
Was I a fool to think this year would be a good year? Because now seems pretty shitty.
Fake smiles. Fake expressions. Awkward situations. Uncertain intentions.
I want to fall asleep by the lake someday, as I watch the stars with a flask of hot milo in one hand.
Cherish some, disregard others.
Time heals. Music heals. Family&friend heals. Lonesome does not heal.
Dramaturgy.
Cognitive Dissonance.
Binary Opposites.
If I could go back and choose between you and the rest of CIMP, you know it'd be you.
How ironic it is: "It Is What It Is" by Lifehouse.
Patching up old friendships. Strengthening new friendships. Forgetting "beyond repair" friendships.
Sensitivity. Insensitivity. Believe it, sensitivity gets you hurt. Insensitivity keeps you safe.
Thus, ignorance is bliss.
There was once a boy who picked up a glass cup from the table, and out of frustration, threw it hard against the wall. The glass cup shattered, and there was no more glass cup.
Moral of the story: Buy more glass cups.
One day, a lady was rushed into the ER because she was stabbed with a knife. The knife was still pierced in her body. The surgeons had to remove it and then stop the bleeding or else she would die from excessive bleeding. Two hours later, the surgeons came with dismay on his face and went to the lady's family to deliver the news. The surgeon said, "The good news is we managed to remove the knife from Jenna's abdomen. The bad news is she pass away as we weren't able to stop the bleeding." Joseph, her husband, shouted through tears in anger," Why weren't you able to stop the bleeding?!" The surgeon replied," Because sir, there was an elephant in the way."
People who look stupid are cool. People who are stupid are damned.
Jim was playing with knives. As Jack was opening his offer of admissions letter from the University of West Michigan, Jim accidentally cut Jack's neck and Jack died. At the funeral, Jack's mom asked Jim how the tragedy happened. Jim explained, "It was a paper cut." Mother believed.
Sleep on my bed, at where my foot lay. But remember to leave the ticks behind.
Will tomorrow be a good day?
Will tomorrow be productive?
Will tomorrow bring me sorrow?
Will tomorrow make me wallow?
Will tomorrow mark a change in my life?
Doubts Doubts.
Traditional milo&hapseng biscuits. Orgasmic.
Two times in one day.
Sleepy. Sleepy.
Shoot me. Stab me. College tomorrow. FML.
Baring it. Baring it.
All's well as for now. Holding on. When I slip, I'll let it all come out.
Disregard. Irrelevant. Ignorance.
Don't wail when he throws the pail.
Don't cry when he die.
Don't mock with your thoughts.
If looks could kill, I'd be a murderer.
Let sleeping dogs lie.
Water under the bridge.
Cooler than the flip side of her pillow.
Avoidance? Mm..
Dance? Footsal?
Anyways, Wonderland calls. Time to sleep.
I wonder if the Mad Hatter would teach me how to Futterwacken tonight. I'd love to learn it.
Goodnight.
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I'd leave a comment, but no,
There's an elephant in the way. :)
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